Dream Grace....

 A sculpting story.
 I have recently had a lot happen in my personal life and i believe there is a lesson involved in all this. To chill out and trust my gut instinct and that everything willl be ok.
 I am prone to having moments of clarity(as i believe we all are) and strong gut instincts but after a little while i start to doubt these despite the fact that often they prove to be true.
 When this comes to others however i am often scared to trust my gut instinct and clarity a few days after i have those moments.
 But so much has happened recently that supersede the normal, so many unsual events that seem to have meant to happen and such strong moments of brutally honest clarity.
 I have also been prone to doing medicine work recently and have found solace in some of it....recently something came up to do with swans and lizards. Swans are associated with grace, and trusting your own clarity and gut instinct and not being afraid to trust it and lizards are all about dreaming, about not ignoring your dreams or the shadows but rather seeing cleerly in them.
 Bare with me there is a point to this.
 I have just completed a 3 day life art workshop and am amazed i have done it as it is 6hours a day stillness and silence...no distracting yourself from thoughts at all. I was sitting there in my own little world when someone said they had brought letters to put words in their sculpture of me. She said "For some reason i want to call it "Dream Grace" which is odd because i never use the word "Grace"" how interesting that she would come out with that during a moment of my introspection not knowing that i had done this medicine work.
 There have been other things that have caught my attention recently about trusting my gut instinct and my own clarity when it comes to others.
 I can not ignore it now, i have to trust the clarity i had in those moments (of course in those moments i do) and sweep aside my own insecurities and self doubt. I know what i feel and i know what i have seen, it might scare me but i know....i think it is time to start believing in things i have no control over.
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