At first I was tempted to pretend that i found this poem annonymously but i am honest and can not lie. A friend of mine inspired me to write a poem. This was the outcome. It could stay something secret for years but i believe it carries an important message and that message should be passed on. Even if just one individual draws strength in some form from this poem then it is worth it.
I thank my friend for inspiring me to write something as honest and strong as this....
SELFISH, SICKENING PSYCHOSIS
So what do you think you are
master?
Hurting me hard, fucking me
faster.
Am I fresh flesh for your sickening
hunger?
hunger?
You pitifull, pathetic pain-
monger!
Your psychotic exstacy revealing your
insanity,
Your entire being a personification of
profanity.
You withdraw your weapon of
choice,
Deaf to my silently screaming
voice.
Is this what you want,
is this what you wish?
To drive my body to deeper hells
of pain and anguish?
Well I shall not give in!
there is no way I will let you win!
I pity you, you hatefull abuser,
you fucking user, pathetic loser!
Have you suffered an attack to your
pride?
Is this why you try to destroy me from
the inside?
A paradoxical captive dominatrix,
addict to selfish sex, looking for a fix.
Lustfull, lancing libido,
you fucking peado!
Slave to your pride,
there is no way i will run and hide.
Just you try and break me,
beat me, hate me.
It will only make me numb,
to the pain you inflict within me!
SPEAR ME! MAKE ME LIFELESS!
you are worthless!
SCAR ME! MAKE SENSES DIE!
but I shall not cry!
RAPE ME! LET IT BE DONE!
in destroying me, however, you have NOT won!
Kathryn Milligan
May 2009
Kathryn Milligan
May 2009
